November 16, 2010
Food is as important as exercise when one is trying to lose weight. But how do you eat well when you can barely afford to pay your rent? If you don’t care about quality, there are ramen noodles. However, if you want something more substantial and think you can’t afford it, think again. As is so often the case, necessity is the mother of invention. I love good food and have discovered that I can prepare delicious meals for next to nothing with next to nothing. Starting tomorrow, I will share some of my creations with you. Yum!!
September 25, 2010
Today I did more errands on the bicycle, had lunch with a friend, and relaxed. Got new inserts for my running shoes.
September 24, 2010
Much better behavior today then yesterday…but not without challenges. I had to run some errands. All on my bicycle. All day. That part was fine. The horror was at my annual physical. Talk about a completely mortifying experience. First the nurse took my blood pressure – no problem, it’s always excellent.
Then the dreaded scale. I told her I did NOT want to know what it said. With my eyes closed, trembling, I stepped onto the metal monstrosity and waited. After it was recorded and I heard the weights being slid back to zero, I stepped off the darn thing. But that wasn’t the end of it. Oh no. In fact, little did I know, it was only the beginning. The nurse looked at my chart and couldn’t believe the VAST difference between today’s weight and my weight exactly one year ago. She didn’t say this, but her actions spoke loud and clear. UGH. She asked me to please step back on the scale. Again.
I finally make it out of the nurse’s quarters and into the doctor’s office. She reviewed my chart, and not believing the weight…you guessed it…she asked me to follow her back out to the scale to weigh again. At this point I am completely devastated.We finally get back into her office and I try to explain. Full of excuses. Described in detail all the changes I’ve made over the past two weeks. She listened. Nodded compassionately. Told me I was extraordinarily healthy, but to keep up with my exercise regiment and write down everything I eat and how much I eat. Every time I eat.
Full of shame, I waddled my ‘healthy’ self out to my bicycle and peddled home.
One day at a time. Heaven help me.
September 23, 2010
Rested. And…ate way too much bread. But, it was organic brown rice bread… and not alone, oh no. Completely smothered with organic butter, white sugar, and cinnamon. And that’s not all. That was dessert. I had already had an innocent, healthy boneless skinless chicken breast and an organic lettuce, cucumber, carrot salad w/just balsamic vinegar. But I couldn’t stop there. Oh no. For one brief evening I completely fell off of by de-bulging project and landed in bed – stuffed. Stuffed and completely disgusted with myself.
September 22, 2010
Although I don’t really remember Gilda Radner, I thought her quote was perfect for today:
“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.”
I headed up to the trails and 45 minutes of speed walking and jogging – all the while thinking of a dear friend who just passed away. She was my friend Roger’s mother. Roger lost his father just this past March.
While on the trails this morning, I reflected on this lovely woman – Doris. I will miss her so much. We shared a special conversation about 2 weeks ago that made a lasting impression in my heart. Her gentle wisdom and sweet nature are rare and precious character traits. My only comfort in all of this is knowing that she is with her dear husband, whom she missed painfully each day.
Dedicating my running efforts to such memories and at such times as this adds an entirely new dimension to the run.
September 20, 2010
Lovely dinner with 2 of my best friends last night…one of them happens to make the best martini on the planet – period. Of which I enjoyed several….and had a rather painful start to Day Thirteen. How appropriate.
Heading out to repent. I’m hitting the trails for some interval training. It is a beautiful day in Boise.
In the words of John ‘the Penguin’ Bingham, “In time, as you begin to realize that it is the quality of your effort that matters, failure becomes unthinkable.”
September 19, 2010
Resting today. A little sore from yesterday’s race, but feeling like I’ve done something.
breakfast: soft-boiled egg w/1 slice brown rice bread
lunch: protein shake made with brown rice protein powder, almond milk, and peaches – period. YUM.
dinner with friends tonight….
September 18, 2010
Just completed the 5K race ‘Run for Autism Awareness’ – my first race in 4 years. It was wonderful. I’ve dedicated this one to my mother and sister – both of whom have done so much for autism awareness and education.
September 17, 2010
Resting today in preparation for the Run/Walk for Autism tomorrow morning….my first race in 4 years. It will be a race in which I will compete only with myself. I certainly don’t expect to place, but will give it my all as I return to participation in local races. Next one will be Zeitgeist…GULP… which, thankfully, isn’t until the first Saturday in November.
This has been an excellent week of improvement. I’ve been getting out daily and speed walking/jogging on the trails in the foothills right by my house. Gradually increasing the amount of time I’m out there, I can feel my body responding positively.
September 16, 2010
188 days seems like forever but also makes reaching, and maybe even surpassing, my goal a reasonable expectation. Who knows, I may be de-bulged by Christmas? OK, maybe not until Valentine’s Day? Who knows.
One thing is certain, however. I’m not stopping this daily commitment to my de-bulging project, period. And will have reached my goal by March 23, 2011.
Started out this morning with a bike ride to the bank and grocery store. Just finished lunch – rice crackers topped with smoked oysters…YUM. Going for a speed walk in the foothills, but no jogging today..ok, maybe no jogging today.
I don’t want to do overdo it but LOVE the jogs. Need to be ready (and not injured) for the 5K Run/Walk for Autism this Saturday, Sept 18…which I will jog/walk.